20 September 2007

inappropriate

Hmm… last night was inappropriate. I think I crossed some line and I want to take it back. I mean, I should want to take it back, but part of me doesn’t. It will all sort itself out in the end if I just don’t do it again. I think.

Had drinks and Kim and her assistant Jake were there. It was very fun, but on the second drink Jake moved in closer to me. Our legs were touching under the table and I didn’t move. I did sort of, but not really. He put his hand on my leg and Kim saw and her eyes got really big. His wife called twice and he lied to her. He told me how unhappy he was in his marriage and how beautiful I am. I don’t think I could have looked into his big blue eyes more meaningfully. It’s all pretty sordid and dumb and I promise I won’t do it again.

As soon as he left and I turned my attention back to Kim, she wanted to know what all the whispering was about on our end of the table. She made it a point to tell me that if he did decide to get a divorce, he would be dating five different girls all at once and they would all be much younger than I am. It wasn’t said in an unkind way, but I definitely understood her point.